Inside My Head, Nepal, Travel Advice

Abrupt Transitions

14 Comments 11 September 2008

 Dhal Bat Days –  Vol. 1


New Cultures

New Cultures

Oh my God – what have I done? I kind of feel like it’s my first week at college again where I miss my friends and my comfortable life and wonder how the hell I’m ever going to make it.

I arrived in Kathmandu after 27 hours of travel from NYC to Nepal…My body and mind felt like mush, on top of it I had cramps.  I was excited to be in a new country again – yet a bit intimidated to be doing this all by myself.  When I left on my around the world travel 2 years ago, I left with a group of friends who I could talk to and in some way that could comfort me and ease me into the solo adventure.  Plus – I went to a country where I was taken care of by a friend who lived there; once again preparing me gently for what was to come.  It was a nice transition. 

However, this transition was anything but nice; in fact the whole thing has been terrifying to me.  Maybe I got to cocky and thought that I was tougher than I really am.  Maybe I got too soft in the US where life is easy.  I’m not sure what it was but this transition has knocked me on my ass and has left me freaking out thinking “What have I done?”   Going from shiny, bright, clean, NYC, the epitome of western culture, to Kathmandu Nepal felt as if I had left this planet and traveled light years away. Nepal is like India. I’m not sure why I hadn’t realized that before I stepped off the plane, but I didn’t. I was thinking that it might be a bit more developed than India…but trust me – it isn’t. In fact, in some ways – it’s harder than India. Delhi had pockets of calm and of places you could go to get some western pampering…but I’ve yet to find anything like that here…then again I haven’t been looking too hard either I suppose. The streets are terrible and the traffic is crazy – beyond crazy; trying to walk down the muddy ‘street’ is a death wish. It’s monsoon season so it’s muddy and wet and you share the road with bikes, people, motorcycles, cars, buses, cows – it’s a massive mess where every step is possible death – or at the very least a severe injury. I remember India like this, but for some reason it seemed a bit more civilized there – maybe because there seemed to be more open space. Here it’s a 1 ½ lane road surrounded by buildings with no where to go to get out of the way. It’s dirty, it smells, I have no hot water, I’m just waiting to get sick, the bed is a foam pad. Sure, I’ve dealt with all of these things before, but not after I had spent 8 months of easy living in America. I had normally come from one bad condition to another…so it never seemed that shocking before. This time I was shocked.

Holy Men

Holy Men


I all of a sudden was flooded with memories of what I left behind and thought why did I do this to myself? I’m all alone in a challenging situation and regret starts slipping into my head….but I can’t let it….yet it really, really wants in.

I met with the man that runs the volunteer organization. I knew this would be very different from my last volunteer experience. When I volunteered in India with a US organization, I knew I would be taken care of well, doted on even – after all – the cost was $3000 – which was really because they had staff to completely support us. This volunteer stint that I as doing in Nepal was $340 – so I knew that you get what you pay for…and I thought I could handle that. Yet now I’m really wondering if I can. Once again – on top of it all I am reminded that I’m on my own, which can make a difficult situation ever more difficult. Let’s just say that there isn’t much support here…it’s ok while I’m in Kathmandu, but once I get to this village – I’m terrified. In fact, the more I hear about the village I get even more terrified. I think I‘m tough – but I am currently doubting that right now as I sit in my lonely room awake thanks to jet lag.

In the ‘orientation’ that I was put through, I learned that I will be eating rice and beans every day for 2 weeks; a type of real life Survivor. They told me that I should expect to get sick at some point too thanks to all of the new bacteria waiting to invade my virgin western stomach. In order to get to the village, there is a jeep that runs but the road is quite poor and steep; they told me that if I was scared, I should just tell the jeep to stop and I could get out and walk. First I should learn the Nepali word for ‘stop’ I suppose. Oh yeah – and I also found out that there will be a community bathing area in which I will need to bath in front of everyone from a large bucket of cold water. Then I was informed that the village that I will be living in has many leaches, but I simply have to pull them off. Mind you, leaches were never in the brochure. Yet, maybe the most terrifying thing to me is that I will be completely shut off from the outside world. No internet, no friends, nobody to converse with in English. My two days of Nepali language class while I was severely jet-lagged isn’t going to get me through any meaningful conversation besides ‘my name is Sherry’.

On top of this – I have to figure out how to teach…I honestly don’t know what to worry about more, eating beans and rice for 15 days, bathing in front of everyone, leaches, having diarrhea, falling off a cliff, or teaching kids everyday. It’s all a toss up.


Bhuddist Prayer Wheel

Bhuddist Prayer Wheel


I’ve been trying to remind myself that the first few days in a new country/city are always like this – very shocking and very scary; but eventually you get used to it and ease into it. It never seems as bad as it first did when you arrived. So I’m really hoping that that feeling takes hold and this immense load of worry that I’m carrying on my shoulders goes away. I know that at some point your brain just gives up and resets itself – much like when I was climbing Kilimanjaro. You stop fighting it and just give in to your surroundings. Unfortunately, I haven’t stopped swinging yet…

This whole process has made me totally forget about my fears of Vietnam for now, yet it is there in the back of my head. What if I can’t live like this? What do I do?

To top things off tonight, I wanted to get some stories posted that I had been working on – and I wanted to check email before going into the hell that I have subjected myself to. Little did I know – there’s a daily power outage in Kathmandu and as I was writing my email to my friend in the hopes of feeling better getting some of this off of my chest – the power goes out and the whole city is black. I am writing this by candle light right now. My cell phone doesn’t work – and the fact that I’m completely cut off makes me want to cry; but I won’t. Why won’t my brain just give in? Maybe it would if there was someone to talk to about all of this…to laugh about it…to commiserate with…but there is no one. Just me and this keyboard. Instead – I didn’t even get to feel like I could say goodbye for two weeks. I just hope that I persevere and make it though.

Your Comments

14 Comments so far

  1. Rhona says:

    Hi Sherry. Just think of these 15 days as just so…only 15 days. As the saying goes, nothing lasts forever and you will one day have something very interesting to look back on.
    This fright is only natural no matter how much you travel. Good luck. Look forward to your update after this “experience”.

  2. Ron says:

    We are here for you, struggling with you. We may have all the comforts of Western society surrounding us as we write you these tidy emails but you have freedom. Freedom to explore and learn about other cultures. We will always be here for you whenever you need us. You will never be alone. Miss and love you


  3. admin says:

    Thankyou…that is just what I needed to hear Ron. Thankyou.
    all my love…Sherry

  4. Lynn says:

    Dear Sherry,

    From your email I know you have made it through all of this, including the beans! I was so glad to get your email – I’ve really missed your writing, your photos, and you!

    Its really amazing, I have three people that are teaching in Asia right now – a friend teaching Geography at the National University of Vietnam in Hanoi for a semester, Danial my son, teaching English to 7 year olds in Taipei for a year, and soon, you in Saigon! I will send your blog to them, and send their blogs to you too! We are all blogified nowadays!

    Love, Lynn

  5. Sara K says:

    Big hugs to you, my friend, from MN. My heart ached for you reading this. I just can’t even imagine being so out of my comfort zone (bathing in public from a cold bucket of water….UGH!) From your email, it sounds like you perservered and have many stories and photos to prove it! Good for you. You are a strong woman and your commitment to service is admirable. Good luck on your next adventure.
    Love, Sara

  6. Judy Mauk says:

    Hi Sherry:

    I truly feel for what you are going through. Two years ago my son and I traveled to Nepal to trek to Everest Base Camp. He had previously spent 6 months there as part of a college study abroad program, so he was very comfortable with the surroundings. When we were driving in from the airport, I was also thinking “what was I thinking???” I got quite ill, went to the hospital three times, and thought my dream of Everest Base Camp was just that – a dream. However, we DID make it and it was the most life changing trip I have ever made, and I have traveled all over the world. It has been 2 years since we returned, and not a day goes by that I don’t think of Nepal, Everest and the Nepali people. Try to enjoy it while you’re there, but I can guarantee you will NEVER forget this place.


  7. Michaela says:

    Sherry! So happy you are back online, although when you are offline that means you are having the experiences we are all dying to hear about. I know the emotions you went through in the beginning but that’s what makes your entire experience amazing. I’m very jealous. And I should have warned you about the leeches. I forgot it was monsoon season – I had a few tagalongs when I was trekking Nepal. And just think – more content for Briefcase to Backpack!
    Cheers – Michaela

  8. Robyn says:

    I just found your blog and I love it. I have always wanted to travel the world. Has been my dream my entire life. Reading your blog has been an inspiration. I have a renewed interest in traveling the world. Maybe a country a year : )I am sure I could take a two week or month trip some where each year. I plan to read your blog and follow your adventure. I pray these two weeks are not to hard for you. From what I have read of your blog so far, you can do this.

  9. Rebekah Nichols says:

    Hi Sherry,

    I really wanted to reply to your post, but everybody above has said everything I wanted to say already…

    I’m so glad to have your international adventures back on line, I can’t wait to see your photos, Sara K said her heart ached for you reading your post- I couldn’t have put it any better myself, you will survive and remember this forever, and YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!!!

    Take care of yourself and ENJOY!
    Love Rebekah

  10. TC says:


    I can’t wait to hear how this all turns out. What an exciting adventure! I don’t think I could deal with the leaches…. Love the new blog format – hope to see you soon in SE Asia!



  11. Sherry says:

    Thankyou, thankyou! I can’t tell you how much I rely on hearing from people as my lifeline out here!
    Yes, I did make it through this process, but it was challenging – I think we’ve all gone through it before at some time. Until you go through times like these you don’t know what you are made of. Thanks for all of the lovely comments!
    RE: T – I really hope we can get together in HCMC – it would be great to sit down over drinks and get your amazing worldly updates!

  12. Carlye says:

    Dearest Sherry,

    After reading your post, I couldn’t help but think that you could totally take all of those so-called ‘adventurers’ on “The Amazing Race!” You go, my friend!

    I miss you!

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I'm Sherry, a corporate cube dweller turned nomadic traveler. I travel to off-the-beaten-path destinations to bring you unique travel experiences and photography. But it's not just about travel, it's also about life experiences of a middle age wanderer.
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