I was breathing heavy, lumbering along in the thick August air of NYC, I felt like every time my tennis shoe hit the ground it was heavy, as if I was a horse carrying a large load. And then they ran by – light, airy gazelles in the form of NYC runners. A pack of slim men and women racing by doing speed work around the Central Park Reservoir. Their bodies glistened in sweat; they were talking to each other effortlessly as they sped by me. Their feet were light, their bodies lean, and soon they were out of my sight.
I had a flash, a lightening bolt memory that struck my brain and said – “That used to be me.”
Despite the electrical charge in my brain, I kept lumbering along on the trail in Central Park. I used to run this trail daily 6 years ago when I lived and worked in New York City. My mind meandered deeper into memories – I thought of the running club I belonged to, the shape I was in, my busy sleepless NYC days/nights, how fit I was. For a moment there was a pang…a familiar tightening of my stomach, a flash memory of who I used to be. A dark, downward feeling came across me as my pace became even slower and my breathing heavier.
And then as quickly as that darkness hit me, I suddenly thought of those fast pack of runners and I wondered where they had been in the world? Had they seen what I had seen, had they experienced the vast beauty and simplicity of Mongolia, had they ridden a motorbike in Vietnam, had they lived with families in Nepal, did they have a immense net of friends from all corners of the world, did they appreciate every cent they earn and every possession they had? Sure – they could run fast and had healthy bodies, but I wondered if they were free, if they were happy , if they were healthy and joyful in the mind. Did they chose to exercise their free thought and look deep inside themselves and know what it was they loved.
I don’t know the answers – I don’t know them.
But I do know the answers for me.
I made it 3 miles…slowly…but I made it. I thought more about my past life in NYC and in Central Park. Then I remembered that I was wearing my Expedition Trips hat which has turned into my running hat over the past few months in all parts of the world. I touched my hat and thought of my adventures yet to come.
I gave up many things when I decided to leave for Kenya 6 years ago on my career break – a salary, a bed, stability, fitness, and romantic relationships – but I have gained much more when I decided to pack my bags and leave 6 years ago.
Who needs to look back when you can look forward?
Not everyone needs to be gone for 6 years – but if you’d like to learn more about how to simply break away and travel for an extended time and potentially change your life – then don’t miss the chance to learn how to go about planing and taking a career break at Meet, Plan, Go! October 16th! I’ll be in my old stomping grounds – NYC for the event – please come out and meet me – I’d love to meet you all in person!
By Sarah Lavender Smith September 18, 2012 - 9:30 am
Hey Sherry, I really loved this post. I can relate to the way nostalgia and reflection hit when running an old route; it happens to me when I run in the North Berkeley area and am suddenly transported back to the mid-1990s when we lived there and I was a beginning runner.
I hope you keep running, wherever you may be!
For me, running the Cen Park reservoir loop brings back each special time I’ve traveled to NYC, and getting to the park for my run is integral to orienting to NYC when I return. If your readers are interested, here’s my post on Central Park Running and NYC Travel Tips: http://www.therunnerstrip.com/2012/04/central-park-running-and-nyc-travel-tips/
Good luck w/ MPG hosting this year!
By Sherry September 19, 2012 - 1:07 am
Thanks Sarah! Thanks for the link too! I’m heading back to NYC in a few weeks and hoping to do some nice fall runs there…still slow – but at least I”m out there! I hope your training is going well!
By Carmel September 18, 2012 - 10:32 am
It’s hard not to have FOMO (fear of missing out). Even though we have left yet, I find myself getting pangs of things I’ll be leaving behind, stuff I can’t do because we are saving, and relationships that will change. But I’m convinced we’re right in doing what we’re doing and I don’t want to stare at all these great blogs I follow so religiously and miss out on something my gut tells me is right. Wish we could be there for the Meet, Plan, Go event. We were in NYC for our anniversary (10/16) last year!
By Britany September 18, 2012 - 2:55 pm
Wow, this piece really struck home for me. I live in NYC and run that exact same trail (looks like that shot of the feet is taken on the path around the Central Park reservoir, yeah?) I’ll be leaving to travel indefinitely in December and I already miss the life I’m sacrificing – but even more so, I’m excited for what’s to come. I am looking into attending the Meet Plan Go event! Would LOVE to meet a fellow New Yorker turned vagabond:)
By Sherry September 18, 2012 - 3:26 pm
Hi Britany! yes – that photo of the feet is on the reservoir close to Engineers Gate – my old running group used to do speed work around there every Tuesday and Thursday morning! I miss it at times – but I find it just as exciting running in places and cities all over the globe instead.
I really hope to see/meet you on Oct. 16th – there will be so many people for you to meet and connections/resources to learn about if you are going to be traveling indefinitely! I know you will love it. Happy running!
By jan September 18, 2012 - 8:39 pm
Great post. Running fast versus travelling the world. I know which one I would pick every time.
By Adam Pervez September 20, 2012 - 9:17 am
This is a great article. I think it’s something every semi-long-term or long-term traveler experiences – coming home a different person.
From what I’ve seen, people usually revert back to old habits and the experience remains as a memory instead of a change in lifestyle.
But when your lifestyle changes, it makes you all the more dynamic and adaptable and interesting. 🙂
By Pamela September 20, 2012 - 1:56 pm
It’s best to do what makes you happy, be free to do or not, to travel or not, what ever feels is right at that moment of your life.
By Liz September 27, 2012 - 11:03 pm
What a great post! Since you are headed to NYC you should look into Family In New York. They can create a custom tour with your unique schedule and interests in mind! They specialize in tours that go off the beaten path, so even for someone who has lived in NYC or visited in the past, they are sure to create a tour for you that will show you a new side of the city!